So this must be love?

I have been  in many relationships before and it's really hard to 

But this one is different. 

With you it is different. 

And I know why. 

It's because I intend to make this forever.

I am not just playing around. Playing around is for kids. We are not definitely kids anymore. 

If marriage is not our intention, we must stop this immediately. 

I am used to young people asking me how to know if what they feel is love. I answer the same thing:

When you are ready to say the wedding vow to that person.

Well, this is actually a useless question for me to ask right now. This begs the question. 

I do not wanna think about the technicalities. I just wanna feel. I wanna feel and enjoy this feeling. 

Napag-trip'an ni Satan?

Habang binabasa ko yung book ng Job, sabi ko sa sarili ko "Lakas ng trip ni Satan." Pero ibang klase talaga tong si Job. Nawala na lahat sa kanya, inaway na siya ng asawa't kaibigan, pero di niya sinisi si God. Sinasabi na ng mga kaibigan niya na kaya siya nasa sitwasyon na yun kasi makasalasanan siya, pero nanindigan siya na righteous siya before the Lord. Grabe. Tingin ng mga kaibigan niya sa kanya self-righteous siya, pero yung confidence niya kay Lord.
Kudos Job! Gusto kitang tularan.

Books to read

Reading is difficult, nevertheless beneficial.
I bought a lot of books when I was in the US, thanks to debit card.
I am currently reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan.

So far so good. It gives a new perspective on things. For example, I know that God loves me and He longs for me to love Him back, but how will I do that? Do I love Him enough? Do I really love God just because? Or is my love for Him a result of His blessings? I learned that I really have to love God just because. Period. 

Second in my line up is Pastor's Kids by Barnabas Piper

Excited to read it! 

Third is Not a Fan by Kyle Idleman

Excited to read these books!

Excited for new revelations from the Lord. 

Why write?

For me, there are two kinds of writers. Those who write because they have to, and those who write as a form of past time or just a hobby. I belong to the second category.
Ever since I was in high school, it has been a habit for me to express my emotions through writing. Being an only child with no limited social life, it was my form of escape, secondary to day dreaming. So when I went to college, I thought I should be a writer and pursued a major in language and literature. That's when I discovered I could never force myself to write on topics that I do not like, nor write when it has a deadline. I am more of a moody writer. I write when I want to. But this year I aim to blog constantly. Why? Because somehow I have the time, ability, and the drive to write, but most importantly, I am a forgetful person.
I want to write down my thoughts, what God has been putting in my heart, my journey, my rants, my feelings, or just anything under the sun.
I shall write for my own benefit, and prayerfully, other people will also benefit from my reflections on random things.
Ultimately, my goal is to glorify God with what I write.
All my blog entries would aim to draw people closer to God.
God is the reason I can write-the Great Writer.
Thus, I shall merely be a scribe through writing a part of His amazing story-my life.